Saturday, April 3, 2010

Love, Lack of time & What Matters Most

Six months! Wow where does the time go???? A person can get caught up in the holidays, then, of course, in my case, turn right around and suddenly become both mom and dad for a temporary time. Once that happens, who has time to write?

I don't mind though. Sometimes I think I am so proud of my husband I could just bust. And if I have to be mom and dad for twelve months so that he can go fight what needs to be fought, then I will gladly do it. I think we are doing okay too. We miss him for sure. I look back at past wars and wonder how on earth the women did it. How did they sit at home and wait for letters that may or may not have ever arrived in the mail box? Today, I wake up to a ringing computer. At the click of a button, that handsome face that I love so much is right in front of me on the screen and I am suddenly overcome with the peace of knowing he is safe for another day.

I know he would want me to be writing, but at the very least, at least I am seeing some fruits of previous writing jobs as Auntie Silly and the Crazy Cousins Day Parade has been published and is now available from Publish America. That is a pretty cool thing. But I go back to my husband. He is doing something that really matters. I have told him more than once that I am jealous. Do I want to be in the Army? No way. Do I want to go fight in a war where the enemy are terrorists who play dirty and hate my guts? Most certainly not. Yet, I find myself in a constant search to do something that matters.

Our children are seven and ten. Raising them matters. Keeping everything together here so that my husband can do something that matters....well, that matters too. If you are a wife of a soldier who may feel like you are doing nothing while the man you love so much is off in a strange country fighting...please know that what we do here matters. It may not seem huge to us, but there are people out there who actually look at us and think, "I could never do that." So I think our job is pretty huge too! May we do it to the best of our ability and to honor God and honor what it is our husbands are fighting for!